supposed to meet denise today... but.. last minute.. she dont want.. she needs to sleep.. thats her reason.. i dont know what to say.. =(.. i called my girlfriend in the morning.. she had sore throat.. i went and buy herbal tea for her.. and took a bus from jurong west to west coast.. to her house.. gave it to her.. she put it aside..but drank it after that..

well.. she says i always give her trouble and say there will be no more second time.. which means i cant go to her house without her permission.... his father friends came to her house and i was there.. she dont know what to do.. whether to introduce me a not.. and she say to me.. tell them your my friend.. YOU KNOW THAT HURTS ME ALOT..its not the first time... and she say.. you can just put the herbal tea here and leave.. i came specially for you.. u said this things to me.. although its just a herbal tea.. but can you really appreciate the effort made by me..

wanted to send you to clementi to fetch your friend.... and u say hurtful things to me again.. u leave first.. later i go on my own.. COME ON..... i want to send you.. and u refuse to... FORGET IT... i left..u know.. i cry on my way back.. do you know it.. i want to show concern for u.. and in the end.. i end up getting hurt by u... you got time for your jc friends and not for me..... i dont even know where u go.. u didnt even tell me.. i guess if i dont ask.. u would never say... many said to me that im stupid... im really stupid.. im persistent about this relationship.. i dont want to give up.. but you keep hurting me repeatedly by the actions u do and what you say...

everytime i ask u out.. u keep saying your busy... im the only one giving my love for u.. do you?.. no messages from u... no call from u... NOTHING... i reallly dont know.. im hurt... seriously hurt.. i may appear to be strong.. but.. =(..

what a joke.. what a joke... im crying..

what am i... am i really your boyfriend.. do u really cherish me... are you there for me when im sad...

i will not message u for the next 3 days.. if you really show concern for me.. u will at least send me a message or call me.. i shall see... =(..

damn it..

my whole day is gone.. i dont feel like going out..

where are you when i needed u most.. i can only depend on myself.. cry to myself...

you said u would leave every sunday for me.. and? what now.. think about it

Yixiang.........=(...